Ah Kwong & Friends

Here comes another emo post for year 2008, it should be a very happening weekend, and i should enjoy my holiday at all but seems i got another surprise news from my parents. Ok, we have to move, anytime, maybe later, maybe 2morrow, next month. I not sure, and dont know. What happen? oh my father facing bankruptcy, he owe bank over RM150k and yet he dont want to installment those loan, thanks genting malaysia, as he used to be crazy genting gamble. Not to blame others, my lovely daddy fucking like to gamble, just like kids playing a game, no day no night, no sleep no eat, just my daddy was a 50 years old old fork. Bloody hell gamble!

Again, i have to face the truth, with my family include my mother, sister ( maybe not count her in as she get married last year already), brother and also my daddy. What my daddy would like to do is let bank take back the house that we are living currently, and sell his car & all sort of properties to settle the bank payment. I wonder what for he want to do like this, actually he can work more harder and installment to bank around RM2.5 every month until payment settle. As his son, i got no authority to control him do this good or what, just cannot accept what he done is the great decision among universal.

So, my mother telling me to divorce with my father, and i’m the one who follow my father. I feel lame, and refuse to do so, as nothing different that i move out, if i move out at least got friends accompany. Then my brother will follow my mother, that will better because my brother still young, he still cannot classify which one good or bad. Anyhow, i still have father, and mother but we no longer to live together, it not meaningful. This is not my home, it not warm anymore, and i will not stay along with my father. Beh u there still got place?

I cant understand, why my father have to do like this, gamble until bankruptcy, no properties, no son, no daughter, no home and sweet wife. Is that so funny to gamble? is that worth? I never understand, never forgot and forgive! I hate gamble, i hate my father gamble like this. He didn’t bring any good image to me since thoughtful, he gamble, gamble and gamble more than 25 years, what he got now? 1 bankruptcy letter from bank lawyer, divorce announcement from my mother, endless-installment for car, house and owed salary for workers.

I have participate few of my client wedding photo shooting recently, i found that my client parents act very stable, and life wonderful. Some of them very rich, some of them from normal income, but it doesn’t matter, they have proper plan, communication with each family member. Their parents wont mess up the wedding party, unlike my sister wedding, my father spoil everything, we have to follow what he want exactly SAME. Envy my clients have such a great parents. I know, i not the worst, but i feel not safety, i lost home anytime, or suka suka someone come to us to collect money, or suka suka sell this off or that. I’m tired, tired on my beloved daddy, style of lack of responsibility. Besides, he owe lot of relatives money, i wonder will i participate any relative events future? i don’t think so, i mind how relative look on us.

Can anyone tell me, how can a 50 years old man live like this? How can he continue rest of life with this shit? Anyway, he still my father…